What do you think? 

What do you think? 

I’m thinking about which direction I’m going to take my blog. For the moment I’m not sure. I will update my teaching in Turkey blog, so  that part stays separate. 

Although it might surprise my husband, I do love cooking. I’m not very good at it and I prefer baking, but I will try to post the occasional recipe. Another thing I would like to write about is life in Turkey, but I’m not sure if I want to include my political opinion. Writing about Ayşe Nur is something I could do but won’t be doing a lot just to avoid nazar. Islam will be just superficial information since I don’t want to risk giving wrong information. Of you have got any other ideas or things you would like to know let me know 

Starting to blog yet again

Starting to blog yet again

I really feel the need to start blogging again. I’m full of ideas, but finding the time to write isn’t always easy. I have installed the WordPress app on my phone so I hope that I will be able to blog a bit more. I’m also planning to reactivate my teaching in Turkey WordPress site again and actively use it for teaching tips and tricks. 

4 months

4 months

Today my maşallah sweet daughter is 4 months old. She starts to become a human with a mind and a will of her own. She’s now 17 weeks old. I calculated that I have changed almost 850 diapers (yes me because my husband took one look and said that’s not my job).   That’s around and about 15 packages. Which means we must have used around and about 1600 wet wipes 16 packages of those. If you look at the numbers like that it sure is a lot.
She can roll from her tummy to her back.  The other way around is still too hard. I often put her on her tummy. She loves that.  She tries to move to the front and she sometimes even manages to do so although it’s mostly by making a caterpillar movement. Most of the times she makes circles. She gets frustrated a lot, but she keeps on trying (just like her mom).
She likes sitting up on my of her daddies tummy discovering her hands and feet.   Talking of her daddy, she absolutely loves him. He throws her high into the sky (well that’s my perspective in reality she hardly leaves his hands) and does more acrobatic tricks with her.
She loves to talk to us goegoegaga all day long. Sleeping is not something she likes to do.
I got a lot of messages on the big language issue. So in short when I’m alone with her I talk Dutch.  I also  read Dutch stories and sing Dutch songs to her. When I’m together with my husband I do all that in English, while he speaks Turkish to her. I hardly ever speak Turkish.
So in short she’s doing great. We love her to pieces.

31 things questions part 2 (7-11)

31 things questions part 2 (7-11)


So up to the next part of the 31 questions…

7.  10 favorite foods

  1. Mati
  2. Tuna patties
  3. Spaghetti
  4. Lasagna
  5. Yaglamasi
  6. Icli kofte
  7. Vol-au-vent
  8. Brussels sprouts
  9. Belgian endive 
  10. Kibbeling

8. Old photo of me

This one is really old and I have changed a lot since then btw I’m the one with the glasses



9. Piercings or tattoos

Don’t ask don’t tell.  I cover my body so I’m not going to share if I have or haven’t piercings or tattoos that just seems wrong. I cover so I don’t want to describe my body to anybody.  So maybe I have maybe I haven’t you will never know.

10. First celebrity crush

I never really had a celebrity crush.  Of course I liked actors, singers, boy bands and rock bands, but to really say I had a crush no not really.   I always had a very eclectic taste in music (and movies as well for that matter).  I liked take that but also guns and roses. I liked metallica but also tlc.  I could go on for a while like this, but in short I  liked a lot of bands, but I never really had a celebrity crush.

11. Most proud moment

Well the birth of my daughter for sure.

Ramadan evaluation

Ramadan evaluation

Well we’re entering the last 10 days of ramadan so time to evaluate.   How is it going? To be honest not good. I can hear you think: how is that possible? You’re not even fasting.  Well no I’m not due to breastfeeding, but I really miss fasting.  I miss the sahur meals at night. I miss the feeling of all fasting together.  I miss meeting friends for iftar. I didn’t have any nice iftar till now. I try do do my reading and learning surah and read quran, but with a baby around that’s not always possible. In short I miss that ramadan feeling.  Inşallah I will be able to fast again next year, because this is the hardest and loneliest ramadan I had since I became a muslim.

My baby and I #2

My baby and I #2

Thing I have learned or experienced….

  • Baby clothes have way too many buttons.  Like seriously sometimes it’s a real puzzle to figure out where everything goes.
  • Laundry so much laundry. The baby is tiny, but boy oh boy  she sure makes a lot of things dirty.  Not only her clothes, but also my clothes, bibs,cloths etc
  • Cloths are your friend so are small towels and bibs.  I have always a piece of cloth over my shoulder to burp the baby.  It helps you to avoid more laundry.
  • Baby powder can be used on a lot of locations not only your baby’s bum.  I now use it under my daughter’s chin to avoid moisture there and it works.
  • Babies cry a lot, but you learn very fast what each cry means.  Sometimes it’s because they are hungry,  they have a  dirty diaper, they are tired, they are bored,…. and sometimes it is just for no reason other then wanting  their mommy so that they can cuddle and be close to them. You learn to recognise the different sounds and you will know what to do and what is more fun than cuddling with your sweet baby.
  • It’s normal to go check on your sleeping baby to see if she’s still breathing.  Okay  I’m lying maybe it’s not normal, but if you’re like me a new mom who’s a bit insecure then it’s normal and it doesn’t hurt anyone in any case (unless you wake her up then you mostly hurt yourself lol)
Ramadan is here again

Ramadan is here again


It’s that time of year again.  Our beloved month of ramadan has started.  This year it’s a different for me.  I will not participate in the fasting since I’m breastfeeding a very hungry little baby and so I’m excused from fasting. However Ramadan is much more than just fasting.  It is also a month full of spiritual growth  and that’s exactly where my focus will be this year.   Like every year I have set myself some ramadan goals:

  • Reviewing the surah that I already know
  • Learning some new surah
  • Learn Ayat al kursi
  • Be more punctual with my prayers
  • Reading a few islamic books
  • Avoid or at least reduce useless television series
  • Work on my character try to have more patience for one
  • Taking better care of my husband
  • Preparing iftar meals (breaking of the fasting) without help of my husband
  • Preparing sahur (meal before starting fasting) for my husband even  though I’m not fasting

Last year learning new surah and learning ayat el kursi hmmm well I failed miserably, but I found online the recitations done by my favorite reciter and I’m planning on playing them daily while reading the surah so they will hopefully stick better. Last year the fasting went great but I was really tired and didn’t have any energy to do more than just prepare some of the iftars.  I much later found out that I was pregnant so I wasn’t even obligated to fast.

Are you participating this year and if so what are your goals?

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